So, I started crying last night. No, no one died. I didn't get fired from my job. I didn't lose my cats. My hip hurt. Not only did it hurt, but it also meant that I may have to take time off of running. As I was googling "bursitis," my self diagnosis, I read a post that mentioned taking six weeks off of running. The thought of taking six weeks off of running meant a lot of things. First, it meant essentially giving up my own form of therapy. Running is one of the only things that makes me feel strong, alive, energetic, and self confident. Second, it meant really watching what I eat and stressing about calories and fat grams. Running, for one thing, allows me to eat without worrying about gaining weight. I know that as long as I run and somewhat watch what I eat, sneaking in a cookie here and then, that I will remain thin and toned. Without it, I am afraid of what will happen to my body. Third, it meant a void in my life. Running is a social activity, a cleansing activity, and an after school activity. Where would I go after school if I didn't go to the gym? Fourth, running gives me goals. When I am training, I am working towards the goal of running a race in a certain time. These goals give me landmarks in my life and events that I can prepare for and look forward to.
The funny thing is, that my sport is other sports' punishments. If a kid is late to football practice, chances are his punishment will be to run laps. One bad play on a field may result in team runs, which are essentially payments for mistakes. Despite this, I love running. Marathon runners are often viewed as obsessed people who are control freaks. I take full responsibility for this. But, I love every second of it. I even love the pain at the end of the marathon, the final push at mile 26, knowing that I will cross the finish line. I love the way my hair freezes while running outside in the winter, and the way I am soaking wet in all temperatures after a long run. I love it so much, that the possibility of giving it up brings me to tears.
2 comments:
I get the "therapy" part.... i have saved$$ by running and venting to my morning buddies! Your hip will heal and you will run a sub 3:20 at Shamrock!!
If there is such a thing as a "good time" for a running injury, this is the time! You have several weeks between training cycles to heal and recover. I too am struggling with hamstring and back issues. Running is so addictive that it is hard to stop. But with some faith and patience both of us will be back to our speedy selves come December. Maybe even better... How's that for some therapy from your running friends!! Love the pic by the way!
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